You’ll be bright

I watch my coach demonstrate the first combination of the night.

“Oooh-let-me-try-my-turn!”

That wasn’t even remotely… close… to what…

FAIL

It’s easy to watch that top notch Muay Thai practitioner execute that combination with such precision and accuracy, and be like damn, they make it look so easy when I make it look like

But remember dear, you are only seeing the front cover of the book. You haven’t read the ups and downs inside that book. The same ups and downs, you too, are writing now.

Get. Up.

Keep moving to meet yourself where you want to be. Imagine that self at the end of the path. Keep moving down that path. Keep going.

If you keep writing your story, one day someone will look upon the cover of your book with starry eyed hope.

And yes, you may say, Amaaannddaa my gym is closed. My partners and coach are no where in sight.

Yes, that reality stings, but as Sophie says to the fire demon Calcifer in Howl’s Moving Castle, “They say that the brightest spark burns best when circumstances are at their worst.”

So burn bright baby, burn bright.

I hope one day to establish a nonprofit  that connects teen girls to the power of martial arts in the hopes they gain a strong sense of confidence and self advocacy skills along the way.

I’ve been lingering in low self esteem off and on for the last few months, and recently a question has been echoing inside of me:

How are you to inspire confidence in young women if you are not a living breathing example of this?

With that being said, I have no choice but to rise to meet my best self at the end of the path.

 

 

Free not fear

Muay Thai became my dear friend that grabbed my hand and pulled me away from that dark thing.

Taught me to love myself first.  Reminded me of my worth. Tells me to never give up.

Don’t feel bad just keep trying. Do better. Be better. Be better at this and to myself and everyone else. Don’t settle. Don’t back down.

Feel free not fear.